I mean seriously. Last November was my last blog post?! Well in all fairness, I did warn you all of my ADD...at least I think I did...who knows, I may have been to distracted :)
Well I just got back from the most magical place on earth, that's right, Disneyland! And let me tell you...I wish I were still there. I don't know, it's weird. There is just something about that place that makes me feel right at home and complete. It sounds beyond cheesy I know, but I can't explain it. I guess I have just always been predestined to work there I guess :) Well we'll see... Hopefully one day my dream can come true. It is actually quite terrifying to think of what may become of my life in a year from now. I mean if you think about it, we work all of our lives towards this one end point, a career, and we never take our eyes off of the training and the dreams, but when the moment comes...we're scared to leap. I am at least. I mean for the past 22 years of my life I've been working towards one singular goal, and now I have to stop preparing and just go for it. Who wouldn't be scared by that?!
It's just crazy to think about really. I mean I can say that I am going to go off and sing my heart out, be the most accomplished performer in the world, but who knows how far I'll actually go before I decide to turn around? Hopefully I won't. Hopefully I'll keep reaching and striving for my dreams to come true until all of them have. Hopefully. Until now, I suppose I'll continue to remain terrified and feign that ever lingering confidence all too well, and hopefully no one will notice. Hopefully I will start to believe in that confidence. Only time can tell I guess.
Terrifying I tell you.
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